Saturday, October 30, 2010

HIGHLIGHTS

The last two and a half years may have been the highlight of my life. This was the period when I could say I have experienced practically everything- from the happiest to the loneliest, the highs and the ebbs, fame and infamy too. I was likewise blessed with the chance to meet the most wonderful person ever who made me see my capacity to love to the fullest. But on the other side, I too unfortunately got caught up with the devil incarnate on earth who somehow contributed to my love falling apart. Don’t be surprised if in the future you find me writing a book, and see that a great portion of it deals with April 2008 to October 2010.

The last three months were especially challenging. We have heard of the cliché or rule of sorts that if one is not fortunate in his career, he may somehow be lucky in terms of money or in his lovelife, and vice versa. My case was the exception. Troubles came in all facets of my life- career, money, love, and worse a threat in my life. Punches in all directions so to speak. A friend to whom I have confided of these troubles commented that he can never imagine himself being immersed in the same situation. Well, that comment was an understatement as on my birthday, my mother had to be rushed to the hospital to stay there for a lingering illness. Shit does happen.

If there is one thing I realized in my predicament is that man indeed had the capacity and endurance for pain. He is after all made to live on earth without guarantee that life is all about wines and roses. When I was young, I read the story of Job in the Bible who was being tempted by the devil to disown his God but never did so no matter how his difficulties compounded. At that time, the lessons of Job never made a real mark on me- after all I was young and I did not think that God would allow a faithful believer to suffer that much. This time around, I think I got it figured out. Our problems, no matter how big or small, self-made or otherwise, are just reminders that Someone bigger than all of us is ready to take over when everything else had failed. I thought that problems may have been brought in our midst to highlight our capacity to endure the pain, rise from the ashes and look back smiling while saying: “been there, done that.”

Finally, it cannot be far-fetch that in another corner of this earth, someone must be experiencing the same predicament as I had. To this, I tell you, cry hard if need be, get scarce and escape from the world for a while, fantasize and/or trivialize of the moments when life was still good, but right after the sulking, you have to learn to accept the fact that nobody can turn back the hands of time. Face the future. The truth hurts and it surely pisses you off, but it is the same truth that will heal your miseries. Believe me. Been there, done that.

16 comments:

  1. wow! very well said mr.complicated,parang npakalalim ang pinanggalingan nito ah.ramdam ko yung pain and sadness while i was reading it,somehow naka relate ako tama ka na truth really hurts and its the same truth that will heal your pain and finally gives u the strength to move on.keep on writing interesting articles like this. wecome back!

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  2. Shit happens and it comes in different packages but instinctly we live to survive.

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  3. I have been a regular of this blog. Even during the time when there were no new ones, I just visit it and read the articles all over again. I must say that i became a regular because of the articles on cases that are very educational but my favorite are those involving the author himself. He writes from the heart. Kapag galet, ramdam mo galet, kapag malungkot, I get to feel it too. Now I know why he does not write regularly. He waits to be inspired before he writes. Kaya naman kapag nailabas may feelings.

    I have problems of my own yet I really feel blessed not to get all punches from all directions as the author experienced. Andami ko dapat ipagpasalamat pala.

    Don't be sad because in your own ways, you help your readers. The time we spend on the internet are priceless because you share a part of yourself to us. More power!

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  4. Mr.Mallari,i've been a silent follower of you,eversince you were still an agent of NBI,until you've made a blog,and i found it knowledgeable and inspiring..This features of yours,only shows,you are really a FIGHTER,and every unfortunate things you are experiencing right now only proves that GOD really loves you,because He knows you can handle and overcome it.thus a saying"We are like teabags,whose true strength comes out when we're put in hot water".So when problems beset you,just think...you must be GOD's favorite cup of tea..

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  5. Let all of these bring out the best in you.

    Just remember, that is how a diamond is formed... intense heat and pressure...

    "In order for a diamond to be created, carbon must be placed under at least 435,113 pounds per square inch (psi or 30 kilobars) of pressure at a temperature of at least 752 degrees Fahrenheit (400 Celsius)."

    http://science.howstuffworks.com/environmental/earth/geology/diamond1.htm

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  6. I offer my prayers to you. God bless and keep writing.

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  7. PSALM 23:
    The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
    He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
    He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
    Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
    Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
    Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

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  8. pre...ramdam ko yung pinagdaan mo. in fact, na extra pa ko sa write up mo. don't forgetdito lang kami. time to move on...to the next level.

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  9. madami ka pang kaibigan , nandito lang kami para sa yo. teka ,kumakanta ka pa ba?

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  10. I am 59 years old with two daughters. One is happily married and another one is out on a date today and while waiting for her to arrive home i finally saw your blog. I was among those who attended your lecture at the Napolocom more than a month ago but I did not have the chance to see your blogs because of the busy schedules. Andami ko nang nabasa sa blogs mo mula kanina. And I saw your profile. I dont know you much except that I saw you in your lecture kaya hindi ko masasabing you're kind. BUt you are everything you described yourself. You are intelligent, charming and with a sense of humor. If I had a son, I want him to be you. Or if my daughters are still available, I hope they bring in someone like you. Keep it up. Am a fan.

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  11. my idol, one good lookin' dude.

    http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/profile.php?id=100001800438695

    Lpit na po laban ni Manny. 50 Congressmen to watched. Ano po masasabi nyo

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  12. Heartache is just a visitor, It won't stay long.

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  13. I felt this, with all my heart. I stay in the net to while away time and especially when I am bored, problematic. To escape from reality. I saw your link from a friend's wall and i started reading. You write on just about any topic. But this one touched my heart. Problematic kasi. BUt since you wrote articles right after this, it means you're surviving, and pretty well i'm sure. Thanks for the inspiration. I will share this. God bless.

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